Loving on Standby

by ISOS

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Dogger Dog If you were to mix the softer side of Riverside and some of the aggression from the debut by Demians, Isos is what would come out the other end. Except for "Relapse," the only song I don't like, the rest of the album is lush, melodic, well-produced, and impeccably executed. Definitely a great new find! Favorite track: Loving on Standby (Part 1): I'll be waiting.
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released September 10, 2014

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ISOS Quebec, Québec

ISOS is Vincent L. Gadreau’s solo project. Founder of Canadian prog rock band Inner Odyssey in which he plays the guitars and back vocals, Vincent decided to start a side project with his personal compositions in early 2013.

Since the release of the album in March 2014, VLG has been busy promoting and marketing ISOS, while simultaneously composing new material for Inner Odyssey's next album.
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Track Name: Loving on Standby (Part 1): I'll be waiting
I used to live my life
Playing a game I guess
I never though that someone like you
Could bring in such a mess

And I'm not used to being
So powerless

And I know I can't fast forward things
But I can't imagine a world without you now
I don't want to waste this chance
I don't want to mess things up

So I'll be waiting here
I'll be waiting for you

It's been half a year now
Trying not to complain
Still trying to figure out
How you can keep me in chains

Something's not right
Something slips out of my mind
I'm caught in an inner fight
Consumed my time

I'll be waiting for something to come
I'll be waiting for something more
Than this masquerade, I want to see life through your eyes
I'll be loving you on standby

I know you owe me nothing
And I never pretended that you were mine
But I'm just sick of waiting
I'm like a ghost in your life

No photographs, no trace of me
No one knows about you and me

It's been almost a year now
I'm going down below
But I'm still clinging to
This flicker of hope


This riddle consumes me
I ponder day and night
Trying to give a meaning
To this useless fight

I'll be waiting for something to come
I'll be waiting for something more
Than this masquerade, I want to see life through your eyes
I'll be loving you on standby

This is a story among many others
But it is my story
And I want it to be known
I want to reveal who you really are

This is my story
And here it begins
Track Name: Loving on Standby (Part 2): Gone too far
You always showed me
The face I wanted so see
This mesmerizing perfection
Just blinded me

"It ain't a way to live"
So they say
"This time, you can't forget, you can't forgive"
They tell me
"She has reached the point of no return"
Yeah, you sure did
I hope you enjoyed watching me crash and burn

Cause now, you've gone too far
You've gone way too far…

You keep denying
These actions of yours
But I won't bite
On your lies anymore

This poisoning hope kills me
Slowly
I'm getting closer to the edge
Of insanity
I collapse under the weight of anxiety
I'm trying to hide my scars
But you still feed on my insecurity

Now you've gone too far
You've gone way too far…
no matter what you do or say… anyway…
You've gone way too far…

Keep playing with me
Keep bleeding me dry
Lie to me, cheat on me
You know that I'm still loving you on standby

Take me for a fool
Make me dance
Break my heart for good
You won't be given another chance

Do your worst, be cold
As much as you can be
Wreck my mind, burn my soul
So I can hate you… finally

You've gone way too far…
But somehow this betrayal is all I needed to get through
You've gone way too far…
And this betrayal is a gift of life...
Track Name: Number Two
I'm standing, confused
In the middle of an empty room
I've been waiting for so long
For flowers that never bloomed
Feels like we never shut the door
Unfinished work, inner gloom
Those memories will remain (forever)
See? I'm still staring at the moon (remembering your smile)

I thought the fire in your eyes
had vanished in the sky
but now it's burning bright
I thought this fire had died
under the deluge of time
but now it's burning bright
brighter than ever

And if what you say is true
And you promise me I'm done waiting for you
And if I do come back to you
I don't want to be a number two (again)

I cannot move on
I'm stuck between two states of mind
I'm tired, exhausted, my feet are burnt
By the fervid sands of time
It's now that you show up? Now that I'm dried up
Was the answer really that hard to find?
I had to overcome my weaknesses
Just to know that you were not blind

So please tell me there is more up ahead
I don't want that to be another «last time»

I thought the fire in your eyes
had vanished in the sky
but now it's burning bright
I thought this fire had die
under the deluge of time
but now it's burning bright
brighter than ever

And if what you say is true
And you promise me I'm done waiting for you
And if I do come back to you
I don't want to be a number two (again)


I've been through this before… twice now
There's no strength left inside of me
These are the last miles I can walk; I'm almost there
But… will you be there for me?
I don't want to be an «I» anymore
Now I want to be a «we»
I need your help to get over this impasse
And maybe then we can be happy
Maybe
Track Name: Inside Your Collapsed World
I have to tell you
It much harder
Than I thought
It would be

I have to let go
I know that
I have to let you breath
I have to let you be

I need to go back
At least for now
But I want to be there
When you need me

I just want to feel
Your soft hands on my skin
I want to taste your lips
And feel your eyes in mine

I just want to know
If it's worth all the pain

But I know I can't
Can't have it right now
Cause there's no room
For me
Inside your collapsed world

And I am still waiting between
Two states of mind
And I am still waiting for the time
When you'll let me in
Inside your collapsed world

For our own sake
I think I must take
My distance
At least for now

Well I say that
But in fact
I don't really know
What's best for us both


I just want to feel
That you’re here
Feel your heartbeat against my head

Just want to feel
That you're with me
Here and now…

But I know I can't
Can't have it right now
Cause there's no room
For me
Inside your collapsed world

And I am still waiting between
Two states of mind
And I am still waiting for the time
When you'll let me in
Inside your collapsed world

No matter what comes up
I'm still holding on to you
Still waiting for you
To make some place for me
Inside your collapsed world

And I am still waiting between
Two states of mind
And I am still waiting for the time
When you'll let me in
Inside your collapsed world

But still I'm standing
I'm here waiting
For something that's not
Likely to happen

I wish I’d have my place
Inside your collapsed world
Track Name: Leave my mind
I'm staring at the ceiling
Of that disquieting place
Can't describe this feeling
How did I wind up here?

Oh yeah… I remember now
I woke up in this stretcher
I think I just passed out
Overwhelmed by anxiety

I know it has to stop now
It's gone way too far
You've already taken enough from me

So why can't you leave my mind
I'm trying to escape
From this endless maze
Now won't you leave my mind
(There's nothing left for you to take)

I ponder
About all those things that you told me
And I have reason to believe
That you weren't that honest with me

I never saw it coming
I just don't know what to think
Was it all just a lie?
I can't believe you did this to me
(You seemed so sincere when you said that you loved me)

And you'll carry on
Even knowing that you broke me
Even knowing that you've taken the best of me

So why can't you leave my mind
I'm trying to escape
From this endless maze
So why can't you leave my mind
I'm trying to reclaim
All the things that were once mine
Now won't you leave my mind
There's nothing left for you to break
Track Name: Relapse
I'm mesmerized, just too blind too see
My soul is scorched by morbid jealousy

Anxiousness is taking over me
I'm losing track of who I used to be

And I fall again
I'm driven back into your web
Will this ever end
Won't you stop poisoning my mind

And when I finally collapse
You just give me a hand
Oh sweet relapse
I'm running right into the same trap again

I slowly fade away
While you're shining in decay
I erase myself so you can stay
Oh you, you just come back in my time of need
You're the one pulling the strings
You're the cause of all this suffering

Paranoia has become my land
Insomnia is now my kingdom
I'm stuck inside this stronghold of fear
Trapped inside the dungeon of your lies

I can't sleep
I'm exhausted
I can't breath
I'm suffocating

This obsession is filling me with hatred
I'm becoming what I've always hated
Your viciousness turns me into a monster
I'm caged inside of me, so tormented

But I fall again
I'm I really that weak
I just don't understand
How much these feelings inflict me

I slowly fade away
While you're shining in decay
I erase myself so you can stay
Oh you, you just come back in my time of need
You're the one pulling the strings
You're the cause of all this suffering

Oh you, you still hunt me in my dreams
I'm floating in between
These nightmares seem so real
Track Name: The Last Words
I wrote you a letter
While you were gone… so far away from me
I had the time to learn… a few things
Some things you have done… I still can't believe it

What a struggle
I never though it'd be so hard
Just to knock at your door and fall face to face
With your illusive perfection one last time

I never thought I'd recognize you
But you were exactly as I remembered… At least from the outside
And when my eyes met yours… I knew that you knew
That my heart would not take it anymore

Just read this letter
Read it to the very end
For it is the last thing
You'll ever get from me

This is the last time you'll see me falling
These are the last words I'll be writing down
No I won't grieve for you anymore
I won't bleed for you anymore

This is the last time you'll see me drowning
I'll forget all of those tormenting feelings
No I won't crawl for you anymore
I won't fall for you anymore